Meditation and the Practice of Awareness

The following, “Meditation and the Practice of Awareness” was taken from: LIVING IN THE LIGHT OF DEATH On the Art of Being Truly Alive by Larry Rosenberg with David Guy, SHAMBHALA, Boston & London,2001.

 

The method of meditation I teach can be seen as a two-step process-samatha and vipassana, or calming and wisdom -with breath awareness as the cornerstone of the practice. The breathing is an ideal object to focus on. It isn't like a mantra; it has no cultural connotations or other associations. It isn't like a physical object, so that you have to be in a certain place or carry it with you. Breathing is simple and portable; we are all doing it all the time. We can notice it not just when we are sitting in med-itation but at any time during the day. And it is always happening in the present. It is our doorway into the present moment.

In order to practice breath awareness as a formal method, the meditator chooses a quiet place and settles into a relaxed but erect sitting posture: cross-legged, with a cushion under the but-tocks to help the spine stay straight; kneeling, usually with a cushion or a bench under the buttocks for support; or sitting in a chair, with the feet on the floor. In all of these postures there are three points of contact, so you are stable, like a three-legged stool, and you hold yourself straight, not in a rigid military way but in a relaxed manner, with just the amount of energy that it takes to stay erect.

Then you bring your attention to the process of breathing, in whatever locale it seems most vivid to you, the nostrils, the chest area, or the abdomen. You don't try to breathe in some particu-lar way. You simply observe the breathing as it is, the in-breath, perhaps a short pause, the out-breath, perhaps a longer pause. You take notice of this simple process without which none of us would be alive. You don't do it; you let it happen. You surrender to the natural process that is already going on.

The act of following the breathing is quite profound; it can be, quite literally, the work of a lifetime. The more we watch it, the more we see that the breath is a whole world, a universe unto itself, and as we follow it over the course of months and years we go deeper and deeper.

Some breaths are long; some are short. Sometimes the breath-ing seems to take place in the chest; sometimes it is way down in the belly. Sometimes it feels brief and tight and constricted; other times it is effortless and very deep. It might be smooth, like silk, or rough and coarse, like burlap. All of these variations are possible, and countless others in between, even within the space of a single sitting. There is tremendous variety in the sim-ple act of breathing. You realize eventually that no two breaths are alike.

The human mind, of course, is a lively instrument, and it has many things it would like to do other than follow the breathing. Most of us are quite restless and distracted; we don't realize just how distracted until we try to do a simple thing like following the breathing. Our minds, it seems, would rather do anything else. All kinds of things come up. That mental activity isn't really a problem; it's a discovery. You're seeing how wild your mind really is.

But at this stage of the practice, you don't want to look at that wildness in detail. When you see that the mind has wandered away, notice that, then come back - without any feeling of shame or judgment - to the simple act of breathing. At some sittings it may seem that that's all you're doing: noticing, you're away, then coming back. Other times - especially as your practice pro-gresses - you may be able to stay with the breathing for longer and longer periods. It doesn't matter how you're doing; this isn't a competetion and you don't want to struggle. Come to see, in-stead, that the awareness of unawareness is in itself valuable practice. Wandering away from the breathing isn’t a mistake or the sign of a weak character. Simply follow the breathing, and when you notice you’re away, come back.

The point of samatha practice is primarily to calm the mind. But of course. you can’t help noticing what is coming up as you do that and sometimes you will notice that one thing is coming back again and again, maybe a pain in the body, maybe a state of mind, like anger or fear. It is as if this one thing keeps calling you away from the breathing.

Sometimes even in this early stage of the practice it is a good idea to expand the scope of your awareness to include what has become problematic. You can also temporarily drop the breath and give some attention to whatever keeps calling you away. You pay attention to it for awhile, the same way you've been focusing on the breathing, and that usually has the effect of calming it down and making it less persistent. Once it has lost some of itscharge, you can go back to the breathing.

Beginners often ask how long they should sit. I really have no idea. In the introductory class I teach, which lasts ten weeks, I start people out at about fifteen minutes and try to work up to an hour, under the assumption that, between the weekly classes, they are sitting most days at home. On retreats most of our sit-tings are forty-five minutes, though some last for an hour. I encourage newcomers to sit a bit beyond what they regard as their limit, to challenge themselves without making sitting an ordeal. If there is no challenge they lose interest; if the challenge is too severe they may get discouraged and stop practice.

But however long you sit, the end of the sitting period should-n't mark the end of mindfulness. The real point of practice is to bring the same kind of attention to everything; just as you give your attention to the breathing as you sit, you should give your attention to taking a shower, eating breakfast, talking to your f'amily. Sitting and f'ollowing the breathing, because it is so sim-ple, is in some ways the easiest thing we do. Our real goal is to be as mindful as possible in all the activities that make up our day.

People also ask how long they should follow this first step of practice before they go on lo the second. That is another impos-sible question. What I usually say is that you should continue fol-lowing the breathing until YOU get reasonably good at it, until you achieve some degree of calm and stability. That doesn't mean that other things don t come up but that you're able to notice them f'airly quickly and come back to the breathing. Thoughts may still he there. but you're able to let them come and go without getting caught up in them.

In a ten-week introductory class. I might move on to the sec-ond step af'ter seven or eight weeks. On a nine-day retreat, at which people are meditating all day. I move on after three or four days. I always let people know that they don't have to switch. If they want to continue with the hreathing, that is perfectly all right.

Following the breathing is not kindergarten. It really is, as I've said. a profound practice, which gets more profound the more you do it. You shouldn't feel any compulsion to move on. Conscious hreathing can help take you all the way to en-lightenment.

The second step opens to a much larger field. Ultimately it opens to a kind of attention that is limitless, literally infinite. In this style of meditation, you might begin a sitting by focusing on the breathing, but once you have achieved some degree of calm you open the attention to whatever is happening, in your body and your mind and your surroundings. You might retain the breathing as a kind of anchor; that is probably a good idea for most people, though some will drop the breath altogether.

Now you are opening to the things you saw as distractions before, all the phenomena that were taking you away from the breathing. Before, they were in the background and the breath-ing in the foreground. Now, perhaps, they are the foreground and the breathing is the background. Or perhaps - as the prac-tice grows more subtle - there is no foreground or background: there is just everything that is happening, all at once, a unified field.

There will be sounds, certainly; almost anywhere you are, even in a supposedly silent meditation hall, there are sounds, both in-side and outside the room. There might be sensations in the body; a feeling of pain or tension, one of relaxation or relief. There might be smells, or a breeze passing through. There might be thoughts. You don't - as when you were following the breath - want to get caught up in a process of thinking, but you will cer-tainly see thoughts pass through your mind. There might also be complex emotional states like fear or sadness, composed of both thoughts in the mind and feelings in the body.

Watching all of these phenomena come and go is more com-plicated than following the breathing; watching the breathing has prepared you for this more complex practice. Sometimes it may seem too complex, too many things are present, or you keep getting lost in thought. In that case it is probably a good idea to go back to the breathing, perhaps for a few breaths, until you've calmed down, or perhaps for the remainder of the sitting. That isn't an admission of defeat. It is just wisdom: seeing how things are for you and what the best way to practice is.

In another way, of course, what I'm describing isn't compli-cated or difficult at all. What you are really learning- and this begins with following the breath - is the art of doing less and less until finally you are doing nothing, just being as you are and letting your experience come to you. There are no distractions; you are mindful of your present experience just as it is. Nothing in particular is supposed to happen. You attend to what is there just because it is there. It is your life at that moment. We are used to doing things all the time, trying to change our environ-ment, improve our situation, so it may seem difficult to do nothing. Actually. there is nothing easier. You just sit and let the world come to you.

In time you will see that these two steps-shamatha and vipassana - are not easy and difficult, or basic and advanced; they are just two ways to practice, one of which is appropriate for some times, one for others. You'll begin to see it as an art, mov-ing from the breath to a wider focus or - sometimes - deciding to go back to the breath again. Samatha and vipassana work to-gether like the right and the left hand in cooperation. A calm steady mind is more able to see insightfully. And insights calm the mind. There is not necessarily a right way to move back and forth, certainly not a perf'ect way. This isn't a realm where per-fection is possible. You never come to the end of the practice of awareness. It will serve you well for the rest of your lif'e.